My Letter to Valerie

Dear Valerie,

                I am writing this letter to you to say I am sorry for the things that you had to go through with everything. You shouldn’t have to be punished for something that Nick did. Yes, you did talk about things with him that in some eyes make you look guilty. Doing the memorial shows how big of a person you are. Things with your family I know are hard even if things seem to be better now, well for now. You just have to think about the person it will all make you in the end. I somewhat know how you feel when it comes to thinking you know someone then they do something that shocks you. I have had someone do that before and my memories of them changed, you look back and then see all the signs and realize there were things that you should have seen then but now they are blatantly there. You don’t know what to think about anything or anyone. You also don’t know how to trust anyone after the fact. You whole life changes after that. You’ll be scared to get close to anyone. You sometimes can’t trust people you were once so close to now are complete strangers to you.  You have to remember that in the end everything that you are going through will and are going to make you a better person in the end. That you have to go through something so hard that you think you can’t get over, but you do, and you’ll be a better person out of everything.

What I was feeling when i was reading Hate List half way through

The emotions that I felt while I read Hate List so far was I can see why Valerie is feeling the way she is. Valerie is very unsure of everything around her. She went from thinking she knew someone to having a very bad happening to her and so many other people in such a short time. She thought that the person that she loves so dear with all her heart was good but in such a short time it changed. When I am reading about her time in the hospital it just breaks your heart. You start to think if that was you what would feel if that was you in her shoes? I know personally I would have gotten very depressed.  If the one person I care for did something like what nick did; I wouldn’t know what was real and what wasn’t real. To top it off having the police making me feel worse then I already feel about everything? Val had to read all those emails, after the fact seining all the signs and not realizing till it’s too late to do anything about it. The detective making her feel as if she was the only suspect when she feels as if she was the most out of the loop. I don’t think I could have done of any of it. Personally that would probably the hardest thing ever to do.

Why I think the author picked the titele "Hate List"

My thoughts of why the author picked the title “Hate List.” Well if you read the book it centers on a girl and her boyfriend; they together make up a list in a note book of people in their lives that have made fun of them, hurt them in some kind of way or another. They aren’t the kind of kids that are the most popular in the world well town. They were probably depressed in some way or another. I personally have been depressed to a point. And I know how it feels to have people pick on you to want to make a hate list. These people are the one in the story that well end up shot. Not everyone was shoot that was on the list though. They had pages and pages of names. When you read a book as such as “Hate List” and people say well we are glad that the shooter is died; well if they really look at it and how they treated him for years they might have seen it coming. Everyone has their point to where they have had enough picking on, abuse from other people. Each person has their own way of dealing with their pain. The girl and boy write a list. So that is my thoughts on why the author named the book “Hate List.”

My thoughts before starting Hate List

The book we are going to read for my Reading 104 class is called Hate List by: Jennifer Brown. I did vote I think for this book. I am not very sure. It talks about a girl and her boyfriend who goes on a shooting spree in their school. Now not everyone has been at a school where there was a shooting; yet it impacts a lot of students everywhere thinking this could happen where I go to school. Now I truly wanted to read 13 Reasons Why  by: Jay Asher. That would have been my first choice. So I am not really sure how this book will go. What I hope to get out of this book is mainly a good story that I won’t ever want to put down. I love books that get me hooked on reading them just the thought I have to know what happens next is my favorite. I read a series over the summer; that I never put down; I even carried the book I was reading at the time in my purse.  Friends always made fun of me for it but the books were that good. Now this book Hate List I will probably be the same way. It seems like it will be one of those books that I’ll take everywhere with me. I want to try and get as much as I can out of this book and maybe a new point of view on the subject even. Well here goes nothing I am going to start reading Hate List  by: Jennifer  Brown.

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