What I am feeling as I am reading Wintergirls

Wintergirls is a very emotional book. Well depends what kind of person you are really? The emotions that this book brought up were sadness. Sadness because you know this girl Lia is basically killing her self but she doesn't see it. All she sees is a fat person even though she's skin and bones really. Most people don't think it's really that common of sickness. There are many different forms of it that most people don't know of. The thing that really made me sick was the pro-Ana websites. These are websites that promote eating disorders. I get that in these peoples minds it's a heathy right thing to do. The websites give girls/men tops and ways to bing and purge things. They also have comment parts that encourage girls like I lost another 5 lb. Other things that can and have been said in these site are like  I forgot to erase my history on my computer and my mom saw that I have been on sites like this and is watching me like a crazy person now. In the book it talks about Lia finding her friend picking in the bushes her freshman year or right before their freshman year of high school because she doesn't want to get fat. She told Lia she learned how to do it at drama camp. When she came home Lia was cutting another very sad and scary thing to do to your self. What these girls go through is sad and tariffing to think about. I know personally I have been that think yet I didn't have the same things going through my mind as Lia and Cassie did. I could get my self to gain the wait, was i as depressed as they were yes I hated gaining the weigh later and still do. Yet I could never starve my self to become thin. To think how hungry I would be? Just thinking about it makes me sick. Yet they don't realize some of the things they do is a cry for help, but they really don't want to change.  I hope people realize it is real and is very common thing that people around us have eating disorders.

my thoughts on why the main characters are good

Lia Marrigan Overbrook, is the main character in my book Wintergirls. She is a girl with an eating disorder. She is a good main character in my eyes mainly because she does show you a good example of an eating disorder person.  Then there was her old best friend Cassie. Cassie is haunting her; at least that is what Lia feels like.  Cassie has or what it seems like to have a same problem just as Lia. Lia at least gets treatment even if she doesn’t want it or says she is doing better but not really.  These two characters are very strong characters to read about. The story they are in is bit slow while reading it. Yet no matter what Lia is a great character to read about in this book called the Wintergirls.

Why I think the author picked the title "Wintergirls"

Well the Wintergirls is written by Laurie Halse Anderson. Now Wintergirls is not a common name for a book. Personally I find the name to mean that the girls in the book are well sick, cold in side. These girls must have a problem, a series one. In this book the main character is named Lia. She is a teenager that has an eating disorder. They reference that she is always cold that could be another reason why that at her very low weight that she is frozen and cold. She tries to hide it from everyone she lives with; she does a good job of it too. The girl that was supposed to be her best friend her best friend abandons her and then died. So that’s what I thought about the title Wintergirls by Laurie Halse Anderson.23p

What I felt when I finished Hate List

So I finished Hate List yesterday, at first I thought that I wouldn’t like the book but now that I have finished the book. I have a totally new view on the book. About the last maybe say 175 pages of the book really got me going. Be for I knew it I was done with the book. I couldn’t put it down. I knew on Saturday that I couldn’t finish the whole book, I was falling asleep reading it. So when I woke up Sunday I started reading it as soon as I could. At that point I only had four pages left to read. It was all amazing how Valerie grew and changed, she finally found herself.  I think it helped her to tell the victims of the shooting.  It was hard yes I will give her that but I think she did need to do it too well heal herself. Reading this book I feel sorry for Valerie, and I can see from her and Nick’s point of view people can be very mean and they shouldn’t be so mean to each other, I know though that, though people stop bullying other people won’t happen ever but I think that they need to step back and think about what they are doing to other people. I know in elementary and junior high I was depressed about people bullying on me and it sucked so much. I would hold it in till I couldn’t anymore and just cry for hours and hours. I have to thank my parents for being there for me they were there for me, my mom unlike Valerie’s was up in my teachers and principals face trying to fix things for me. I love my mom that in high school she had a rep. with teachers if they had to talk to her it wasn’t a good thing, she even got my behind the wheel teacher to be overly nice to me and it even scared other teacher of mine at how nice he was being to me and her. So I can see how Valerie had a list she used it as a way to vent her anger; and now panting is her venting.

My Letter to Valerie

Dear Valerie,

                I am writing this letter to you to say I am sorry for the things that you had to go through with everything. You shouldn’t have to be punished for something that Nick did. Yes, you did talk about things with him that in some eyes make you look guilty. Doing the memorial shows how big of a person you are. Things with your family I know are hard even if things seem to be better now, well for now. You just have to think about the person it will all make you in the end. I somewhat know how you feel when it comes to thinking you know someone then they do something that shocks you. I have had someone do that before and my memories of them changed, you look back and then see all the signs and realize there were things that you should have seen then but now they are blatantly there. You don’t know what to think about anything or anyone. You also don’t know how to trust anyone after the fact. You whole life changes after that. You’ll be scared to get close to anyone. You sometimes can’t trust people you were once so close to now are complete strangers to you.  You have to remember that in the end everything that you are going through will and are going to make you a better person in the end. That you have to go through something so hard that you think you can’t get over, but you do, and you’ll be a better person out of everything.

What I was feeling when i was reading Hate List half way through

The emotions that I felt while I read Hate List so far was I can see why Valerie is feeling the way she is. Valerie is very unsure of everything around her. She went from thinking she knew someone to having a very bad happening to her and so many other people in such a short time. She thought that the person that she loves so dear with all her heart was good but in such a short time it changed. When I am reading about her time in the hospital it just breaks your heart. You start to think if that was you what would feel if that was you in her shoes? I know personally I would have gotten very depressed.  If the one person I care for did something like what nick did; I wouldn’t know what was real and what wasn’t real. To top it off having the police making me feel worse then I already feel about everything? Val had to read all those emails, after the fact seining all the signs and not realizing till it’s too late to do anything about it. The detective making her feel as if she was the only suspect when she feels as if she was the most out of the loop. I don’t think I could have done of any of it. Personally that would probably the hardest thing ever to do.

Why I think the author picked the titele "Hate List"

My thoughts of why the author picked the title “Hate List.” Well if you read the book it centers on a girl and her boyfriend; they together make up a list in a note book of people in their lives that have made fun of them, hurt them in some kind of way or another. They aren’t the kind of kids that are the most popular in the world well town. They were probably depressed in some way or another. I personally have been depressed to a point. And I know how it feels to have people pick on you to want to make a hate list. These people are the one in the story that well end up shot. Not everyone was shoot that was on the list though. They had pages and pages of names. When you read a book as such as “Hate List” and people say well we are glad that the shooter is died; well if they really look at it and how they treated him for years they might have seen it coming. Everyone has their point to where they have had enough picking on, abuse from other people. Each person has their own way of dealing with their pain. The girl and boy write a list. So that is my thoughts on why the author named the book “Hate List.”

My thoughts before starting Hate List

The book we are going to read for my Reading 104 class is called Hate List by: Jennifer Brown. I did vote I think for this book. I am not very sure. It talks about a girl and her boyfriend who goes on a shooting spree in their school. Now not everyone has been at a school where there was a shooting; yet it impacts a lot of students everywhere thinking this could happen where I go to school. Now I truly wanted to read 13 Reasons Why  by: Jay Asher. That would have been my first choice. So I am not really sure how this book will go. What I hope to get out of this book is mainly a good story that I won’t ever want to put down. I love books that get me hooked on reading them just the thought I have to know what happens next is my favorite. I read a series over the summer; that I never put down; I even carried the book I was reading at the time in my purse.  Friends always made fun of me for it but the books were that good. Now this book Hate List I will probably be the same way. It seems like it will be one of those books that I’ll take everywhere with me. I want to try and get as much as I can out of this book and maybe a new point of view on the subject even. Well here goes nothing I am going to start reading Hate List  by: Jennifer  Brown.

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